by Scroobius Pip
Its tragic.
You try to cut yourself in half but this ain’t magic
In fact its
Something far more dark and more dramatic.
Self harm
That’s what they call it.
Because it just affects YOU
It’s YOUR life
YOUR body
So YOU can choose what YOU do
And if one day you can’t rein it in and of your last breath you are the only witness?
Then so be it because its YOUR last breath and its nobody else’s business.
But…how about your little sister?
I mean you think your life’s been bad
And by no means am I belittling that because I know the troubles you’ve had
But a teen finding out her big sister chose death over life.
Finding out that instead of turning to her with your problems, you turned to a knife.
That’s a whole lot of pain to deal with, and a whole lot of damage
And the only roll model she has now is little more than words engraved in granite
But as you said before, this is just effects YOU
It’s YOUR life
YOUR body
So YOU can choose what YOU do
And if one day you can’t rein it in and of your last breath you are the only witness?
Then so be it because its YOUR last breath and its nobody else’s business.
But…how about your parents?
God knows they’ve done all they can to support.
Yeah you didn’t grow up in a mansion but they gave you the best life they could afford.
And the second that last bit of life trickles out and your lungs cease to breath
They have failed the most important task and test they will ever receive.
They have failed to give their child a life that’s worth living
And that’s a failure that, as long as they live, of themselves is unforgiving.
But as you said before, this is just effects YOU
It’s YOUR life
YOUR body
So YOU can choose what YOU do
And if one day you can’t rein it in and of your last breath you are the only witness?
Then so be it because its YOUR last breath and its nobody else’s business.
But…how about your friends?
How did they fail to see this coming?
I mean you can only hold so much pain and recently it seems like the tap has been left running.
Families grow distant but it’s meant to be your friends you can rely on
They shouldn’t just be there for the fun and the drinks; they should also be a shoulder to cry on.
They should be the ones you go to when you can’t talk to your family
But they’ve failed too, because although you didn’t ask for it, there support should have been mandatory
But as you said before, this is just effects YOU
It’s YOUR life
YOUR body
So YOU can choose what YOU do.
And if one day you can’t rein it in and of your last breath you are the only witness?
Then so be it because its YOUR last breath and its nobody else’s business.
But then…what about me?
What kind of boyfriend am I?
Instead of living a life I was a big part of, you would rather die.
Instead of fighting through together and turning things around
You decided the grass was greener on the other side of the ground
Of our shared lives there was nothing worth living for as far as you could see
And if that’s the case what is there left in this life for me?
But as you said before, this is just effects YOU
It’s YOUR life
YOUR body
YOUR sister
YOUR parents
YOUR friends
And YOUR partner
So YOU can choose what YOU do.
And if one day you can’t rein it in and of your last breath you are the only witness?
Then fuck everybody else, because that ain’t something you’ve got to live with.
