Memoirs, Fiction & Poetry

Who Owns the Dropper Owns the Fix: Out to Lunch with William Burroughs

It was summer 91, I think, when sharing a joint on a brick fire escape after a night of acid-tapped cartoon lunacy, my friend Steve exhaled smoke into the Manchester morning and casually asked if I’d heard of a writer called William Burroughs. I hadn’t, but that moment was my first gleaming of what was to become a deep, unremitting love for the man J.G. Ballard called ‘True genius and first mythographer of the mid-twentieth century’. Steve passed the joint and disappeared indoors – momentarily leaving me staring, rabbit-eyed, into the headlights of reality – before returning with a tatty, yellowing paperback. ‘Read this,’ he said, thrusting the well-thumbed pages at me. ‘You’ll love it.’

Naked Lunch: odd title, I remember thinking, flipping the book over and over. What is this, some kind of naturists’ cookbook? I turned to the first of two introductions and began reading…

I awoke from The Sickness at the age of forty-five, calm and sane, and in reasonably good health except for a weakened liver and the look of borrowed flesh common to all who survive The Sickness … Most survivors do not remember the delirium in detail. I apparently took detailed notes on sickness and delirium. I have no precise memory of writing the notes which have now been published under the title Naked Lunch. The title was suggested by Jack Kerouac. I did not understand what the tile meant until my recent recovery. The title means exactly what the words say: NAKED Lunch – a frozen moment when everyone sees what is on the end of every fork.

‘What the fuck is this?’ I said, burnt synapses trying hard to connect. Steve smiled, sane as he could muster. ‘Read it,’ he repeated, taking the joint from me. ‘You’ll love it.’


“Hello, Bill”

William Seward Burroughs II (1914-1997) – a Harvard man: junkie, queer, outlaw, writer. The Priest, they called him, El Hombre Invisible, Old Bull Lee. His books have been praised as radical satire, pilloried as pornographic, appropriated by other gods for their own sybaritic sermons. His ideas, language and imagery have infiltrated popular culture through his influence and collaborations in literature, film, music, and art. David Bowie, William Gibson, David Cronenberg, Patti Smith… so many have paid tribute to the Burroughs trip.

I read the rest of Naked Lunch that afternoon in a foetal curl; couldn’t put it down. I couldn’t be sure what I was reading wasn’t just residual damage from the previous night, didn’t know if I was still hallucinating. Coming down off acid is a strange place to encounter near-eastern Mugwumps gorging themselves on slender youths, the “talking asshole” routine, Doctor Benway and the black meat, or A.J.’s annual party, where an appreciative, ejaculating audience watches red-haired, green-eyed Johnny get fucked by his girlfriend with a giant metal dildo – Steely Dan III from Yokohama.

This stuff was written in the 50s, for Christ’s sake, how the hell did they get it past the censor? Truth is they didn’t – not at first. After it was finally published in the US, Naked Lunch was put on trial for obscenity. But that was way back in Boston in 65, and anyhoo…



After Naked Lunch, I devoured just about everything by or about Burroughs I could lay my fevered mind on: slid through the early confessional narratives of Junkie and Queer; waded knee-deep in the experimental cut-ups of the Soft Machine trilogy (notebooks, Bill, put ‘em away for later); masturbated with The Wild Boys, marvelled at the masterpiece that is Cities of the Red Night; and absorbed, agog, Ted Morgan’s seminal biography Literary Outlaw.

Here was a man whose life jumped from the page every bit as unconventional and dangerous and as funny as anything he had written. His life and his art weren’t just intertwined, as with most writers, they were conjoined twins pickled in apomorphine. The lifelong on/off heroin addiction, the accidental killing of his wife during a drunken party trick in Mexico, the subsequent exile in Tangiers, Paris and London…  JUNK sick routines and vacant lot scenes of CONTROL, parasitic possession and WORD as VIRUS appear again and again, in ever evolving mutations, across the body of his life and work.



Not for him the easy journey of write what you know. ‘In my writing I am acting as a map maker, an explorer of psychic areas… a cosmonaut of inner space, and I see no point in exploring areas that have already been explored’, he once said. For this guy, words were the beginning not the end of writing, and he illustrated this in his endless, sometimes exasperating experiments with just how far, and in what forms, language can go.

I didn’t truly understand the power of Burroughs’ words until I first heard his voice: the St Louis drawl – the cracked mumblings – the gnarled fingers talk of a prophet with no easy message. When I first heard him speak, it was on a flickering, badly recorded video of a reading he gave at Manchester’s Hacienda club in 1982 – the Final Academy Documents. Double whammy, since the Hacienda was also my old stomping ground in the early 90s. Would’ve held it even higher had I known Bill once graced that piercing-cold warehouse with his presence. But that voice – honing into earshot – reeling in wonder and abasement – and my God, everything falls into and out of place.



Burroughs saw his writing both as a method to achieve immunity from the events of his life, and as an attempt to exorcise the ‘Ugly Spirit’ he believed had possessed him and caused the death of his wife when he shot her through the forehead. He later admitted in the introduction to Queer (written in 1951/2 but not published until 1985): ‘I am forced to the appalling conclusion that I would never have become a writer but for Joan’s death, and to a realization of the extent to which this event has motivated and formulated my writing. I live with the constant threat of possession, from Control. So the death of Joan brought me in contact with the invader, the Ugly Spirit, and manoeuvred me into a lifelong struggle, in which I have had no choice except to write my way out.’

To focus only on the profoundly wretched aspects of Burroughs’ life, however, is to miss much of a writer who was also an arch humorist, with a switchblade wit that could cut through bone. The man could be wildly funny, and if you find that hard to believe, read Twilight’s Last Gleamings, where Doctor Benway (one of Burroughs’ most popular and recurring characters) drunkenly operates on a patient on a sinking ship; or Roosevelt After Inauguration, where the incumbent president celebrates his victory by forcing the Supreme Court to have sex with a baboon. And if you don’t fall about laughing then seek medical attention, for it is my diagnosis that you are dead already.


Rub Out the Words

For my money, Burroughs’ acerbic wit was put to best use when he turned his ire on the evils perpetrated by the twin shitheads of government and big business. After all, this was the man who wrote, either by design or cut-up, in Nothing Here Now but the Recordings:

Listen to my last words, anywhere! 
Listen all you boards, governments, syndicates, nations of the world,
And you, powers behind what filth deals consummated in what lavatories,
To take what is not yours,
To sell out your sons forever! To sell the ground from unborn feet forever? For Eve-R
Listen to my last words, any world! Listen if you value the bodies
for which you would sell all souls forever!
I bear no sick words junk words love words forgive words from Jesus
I have not come to explain or tidy up
What am I doing over here with the workers, the gooks, the apes, the dogs, 

the errand boys, the human animals? 
Why don’t I come over with the board, and drink Coca-Cola and make it?

Burroughs stood firm against ‘the Coca Cola deal’, and those words are as powerful and as prescient to the ills of today as they ever were. It would be fascinating to hear what he’d have to say about the current climate, to see if he could explain, as he attempted, ‘how the blood, and bones, and brains of a hundred million more or less gooks went down the drain in green piss! So you on the boards could use bodies, and minds, and souls that were not yours, are not yours, and never will be yours.’ To prove, as he asserted, that ‘these words are not premature, these words maybe too late.’


Gone to Come Back

It is twenty years since William Seward Burroughs died from complications following a heart attack at 6:50 p.m. August 2, 1997. Feels like yesterday. But for a writer who was rarely linear, time passes in both directions. His last words were reportedly a quote from his long-term friend and collaborator, the artist Brion Gysin: ‘Back in no time.’ Three days before, Burroughs wrote in his final journal entry: ‘Thinking is not enough. Nothing is. There is no final enough of wisdom, experience – any fucking thing. No Holy Grail, No Final Satori, no final solution. Just conflict. Only thing can resolve conflict is love, like I felt for Fletch and Ruski, Spooner and Calico [his cats]. Pure love.’

I agree with the latter part.


Words by Leon Horton

Artwork by Stephen James, featuring an original illustration by Mark Walsh

Leon Horton and Stephen James

Leon Horton is a journalist and writer. After gaining his masters from the University of Salford, he cut his teeth on local magazines, enjoyed a caretaker stint as the editor of Old Trafford News then returned to freelance writing. His work has been published in the Australian science magazine Nexus and in the US animal rights magazine The Animals Voice. Leon lives in Manchester, England, and can be contacted at

Stephen James is an artist who uses words, collage, sound and photography for the gathering, distortion and dissemination of information. He is currently studying Fine Art and Art History at Goldsmiths, University of London. His work is published in International Times, Literary Heist, Erotic Review and Empty Mirror. Stephen can be contacted at

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